i will never forget you

i have figured it out,
i was too busy thinking about what would my life would be like without you
but i have realized that i needed to think about what my life was like with you

when it was just me and you we were so in love we could not see anyone but eachother.

when we were apart, i was always worried about what you might do when i wasnt there to distract you from the rest of the world.
when i couldnt see your face i wished it was there, but it never was.
you were always leaving me for someone else

my life without you will be less of a worry but it wont be as great as it was with you.

it is safe to say that you ment fore to me then anyone else ever will,
that i will bever forget the moments we shared,
that no matter what, the numbers have stared over with you and you were my fist everything.

and i will never forget you.

Ruined

i'm holding on to our memories,
to our words
our feelings,
to the sound of your guitar,
to the sounds of you sleeping on the phone

i cant do this
i cant let you go
why did you have to ruin us?

written:
11.20.2010

The final desition

its almost funny how much i had this coming
better hold your breath because the rest of your life will be a roller coaster
you made the worst decision to do that to me
now you will pay for all the pain you caused me
for every tear i shed over your worthless words and what we were

forever and ever was a joke
there was never a together

i will walk past you and you will understand what you just did
you let the best one you'll ever find slip away from your grasp
i held on for as long as i could hoping you would pull me back in
but instead you let me fall
and i fell to the ground
and i too shattered in to a million little pieces just like what you did to my heart the time before

you want to slowly go back to the way were used to be
but there was no used to be, there was no then
everything was all wrong about us

i refuse to shed another tear because of your useless body and soul
but i cant fight the tears
they must come out

as they start to roll down my face one by one i flash back to when we thought we were going to be together forever

you will never be on my mind
you will never fall asleep to the sound of my voice

i will never come back, no matter how much i want to

its funny how much i loved you
its funny how much you meant so much to me
its funny how many times you lied to me

you loved me? i dont think so babe
take all your shit and never come back

im done with you and all these feelings
i want to let you know everything im feeling but i cannot talk to you

tomorrow will be hell.
there is no turning back now
your strapped into this roller coaster that will never end
keep your hands and feet inside, i dont want to see you get hurt?

have fun with the good for nothing girl that will leave you.

forever means never, never means we didnt happen.

I'm sorry forever and ever never happend

Forever and ever baby I will never stop loving you,
I will never stop wanting you
I wrote you a song for you and for you only
You’re the first girl that has ever meant something more to me then what I need
I miss you when your not here next to me
I cant breath when your not standing close enough to me
I want to hold you in my arms and never let go
Forever and ever baby we will be together
Nothing will ruin us
Nothing will break us apart

Well, forever and ever isn’t long enough for me to have you
I want you till the rest of time
I want to fall asleep in your arms and wake up with you still there

I actually meant those words that I said to you
But for you it was all just a game
You play by the book that you have written

You broke my heart because you needed time to think
I cried for seconds that seemed like minutes for minutes that seem like hours and hours seemed like eternity’s at a time
I want you so bad but you are messing it all up
You were never like this with all the others that you were with, just me

I wait for you to call me every night
I am disappointed and alone when you don’t answer
I need you to be with me or else I feel like I will fall,

I don’t think you ever loved me
I don’t think you ever will

I have given you a second chance but it is as if you need more chances to get it right
I don’t want to waste my time
But when I’m with you, time fly’s by

Everything I have said has meant nothing
Everything you said has meant everything, to me

Why do you want to let me go
when I have given you my heart and soul

For I dream to be the girl you pick up and twirl around
I forever wish to be that girl that you will never forget



For all the things we talk about it's never me it's always them

I should just let you go but I am not yet capable
It hurts me even more that I can't do anything to change your mind
You may love me more then them but they are close enough behind

I didn't say those three words to you until they meant something
You said them to feel like you had the power to control my mind

And I find that I should have let you go when u wanted me to
Because now there is no love it's all just a show
A play of your desire to hurt me and love me
An act to fool every feeling I show and feel

You used to be that boy next door that I would always think about
But now I feel as if you live miles and miles away
And the connection is slipping

The lines from the telephone poles are falling
The battery is dying

The rain pours down on my window
As the tears run like a river down my face

The hate and jealousy that I feel shouldn’t be there
The worrying shouldn’t have to happen
But these feeling have led me to questions that you have given me answers to
I wish I never asked but I needed to know
I needed to know I wasnt the only one on your mind anymore
I needed to know that there wasn’t much there
I needed to know the song your wrote for me, wasn’t for me

The things you said to me I believed and I thought were true,
But anything I said to you was nothing to you.

Breaking my heart meant nothing to you as long as you had other options
It hasn’t been the same since then
I can’t feel anything about you anymore

I should have listen to all the others that told me what I needed to do not what I wanted to do.
You should have just kept thinking forever because it would have been better then what we have now

I am not like all the others you fell and have fallen for
Something called self repecet is something I have and they don’t

Im sorry if im not the girl you thought I was
Im sorry I cannot change the way I am
Im sorry that you will not let me change your mind
Im sorry that forever and ever never happened.

Your second chance

You wanted me to stay
Then you wanted me to go
You have to choose what you want
But my heart is set on you my dear.
I will never fear your love,
Just the thought of losing you once more
I could not stay away
I could not stop needing you
I could not stop thinking about you

My tears have ceased but the pain is still felt,
The confusion and frustration
Then anger and the love

I need you to know that you hurt me enough to make me cry,
That you broke my hear with just a phone call
Then tried to make things better with a text
This is your last chance to have me back,

You say you can’t breathe without me by your side
Will I can’t see when your not there to guide me.

Hers your second chance
You only get one,
So wow me back babe.

All i feel is Sorrow

All I feel is sorrow
As if there will be no tomorrow
You have left me with tears running down my face
It will take time for me to figure out my place
I love you still
For you do not have the will to hold me again or to make me happy
You are the only one I want to talk to but you will not answer my calls
Why do I still love you?
Is it the fact that you were the only on I did not fear?
Or was it that you were the only one I wanted to be near?
I gave my whole heart to you and you have let go of it and let it drop to the ground
As we stand to watch it fall it shatters into so many pieces it will never be able to be put back together
I trusted you to keep it safe but that was a mistake
I will try to make my feelings for you fade
But the image of your face is stuck in my head
I cannot forget the moments when we were together
I feel like I will remember them forever
I love you so much to let you go
But I don’t know why you wanted to go
You left me with no one and tears in my eyes
I want you to come back but you want to stay way
So you might as well take you clothes that you let me keep so I can go back and weep over you and what you did to me
Baby I love you but you won’t say it back
And it hurts e so bad that I do not have the will to see your face, but you have made me go back to this place of heartbreak and sorrow,
of loneliness and tears,
of memories that will not disappear.
This is the place I was at for so long.
You had taken me away from this place but now I am back
I do not want to be here.
All I want is for you to come back and wipe my tears and tell me you love me once more
Because I cannot take this anymore.
I love you forever and always will

Your the only one i needed to find

The thoughts of losing you cross my mind.

It took me a while to figure out you’re the one I needed to find.

Now the feelings of losing you are making me hold on to all of what’s good.

You are the only thing that has been on my mind,

And I hope that goes for you.

It is unimaginable the love I feel for you.

You are mine and only mine.

I want you to be at my side,

To never disappear.

I don’t know what it is about you but you are the only one I do not fear

I am not afraid of falling in love with you

But I am afraid to lose you

You belong to me

You are the keeper of my hear and I want you to never let go of it

I never want you to let me go.

I live off the moments when we are so close I can feel your breath on my neck and you lips pressed against mine

When your fingers are interlocked and they are holding on so tightly we will never let go

When we fall asleep on the phone

I wish I could talk to you forever,

There need not be words just the thought of you being with me is all I need to survive a life time with you.